Dear Silly,
We met first time on net in 2000. that time I never thought and did not realize how u got into my life slowly but sure. after quite a long introduction on net, then u finally decided to meet me in Jakarta. I know myself very well, but I haven't know u too well I guess. after our meeting which caused me a very deep feeling over u, I tried avoiding you. I tried very hard to erase you from my mind, besides that I tried to erase our meeting too.
but, you always are in your positive thoughts over me. think that I was fine. well I am fine finally.
I still try to avoid until one day I cannot resist it again.
We then have some chit chats again in our messenger then I ask your blackberry pin. then you start calling me again though it was just one call after such long years.
again, I know myself. I am too easy falling for you yet now more afraid on this feeling. now you start one promise that we will try and develop this relationship into something by getting closer and getting to know each other well.
but again am afraid. am not afraid of you silly. I am afraid of my ALLAH SWT. I am afraid that ALLAH SWT will become very jealous to see us become so close while we are not yet husband and wife, silly.
moreover, your faith is different with mine. I have asked ALLAH SWT to give guidance to you and to open your heart to Islam. Still having the same prayers everyday for you Silly.
All my life I have never found someone as silly as you. Maybe I am more sillier than you, but you are still silly to me.
at my room 5.51pm
